As we sin, so do we suffer.
The experience of loss has led many to search for meaning and understanding.
Perhaps the desire for control, for repairing a painful reality, has been translated into a search for connections between “wrong” actions and the “punishment” that followed in the form of loss. Perhaps immense pain turns into a search for answers, for its causes, in an “all-knowing” God.
As I see it, punishment does not come from an all-seeing, all-knowing deity. Reality itself is stronger than us, and every action carries consequences, for better or worse.
The pain of loss leads us inward. We “repent”, we search for meaning. And when there is a desire to grow, this search can give rise to renewed growth, to forward movement in life, to ascending levels.
Until the next sin, The next loss.
And thus the cycle forms: sin, loss, introspection, and regrowth, until the day we cease to take part in this world in its physical form.
The first piece I wish to present from my debut album ‘Agape’, released these days, speaks about this endless cycle: loss and regrowth.
I dedicated this piece to a beloved friend who experienced immense loss throughout her life, and for whom I wished renewed growth. Tragically, a week later she chose to free herself from the cycle, and it was then that I understood the loss was now mine, and this time it was my turn to grow again.
This piece simmered within me, carrying the full intensity of regrowth born from the pain of loss and that is how I wanted it to be expressed in performance.
For this reason, I asked my first piano teacher, Inbal Gutter, to perform the piece together with the wonderful Natasha Sher. They truly brought it to life, creating from the notes I gave them a beautiful dialogue filled with pain and hope.
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